Something I have learned on this journey in life is that storms come -and boy to they come.  But, just like the sun comes out after it rains (whether it’s right away or the next day), the sun still comes out.

The sun brings light, clarity and usually a sense of calmness and a bit of serenity.  This is what I’ve found to be the case in life too.

The pain that can come in life can seem almost unbearable and sometimes it feels like it will never stop – just like those times that it just rains for days.  I remember in year 7 when things were just hard – from my parents divorcing to losing my brother in law and grandfather within 3 months of each other, to being in an abusive marriage to then being divorced – I wasn’t sure life would ever get good again.

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But alas, it did.  However it required a lot of work on my part and a shift in focus and attitude.  I had to decide that I would no longer let the storm whip me about and take control over my life.  No, I had to make a decision to think positively and take the required steps to wholeness.

This meant replacing the negative tape in my head with things that were positive.  It meant making changes in my life to feel better physically, emotionally and spiritually.  So out came my journal and bible on a regular basis.  This meant uprooting the negative people in my life who only tried to tear me down and instead only having people in my life who were positive and encouraging.  The journey required action.  I couldn’t just sit by and just let the storm pummel me.

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Just as we take precautions to be prepared for weather storms, we need to be prepared for the emotional storms that may come our way.  Take the last couple months for example…..I have had a lot going on.  I’ve been really busy and I’ve also had some things come against me.  From people telling lies about me, to speaking negatively about my character and my heart.  I had some very big ‘no’s’ and I questioned a lot of what was going on, what it all meant and what I was to do in the future and I actually thought about giving up and quitting.

The only thing is…I am not a quitter and I’ve come too far to just lay down and let this little storm try and overtake me.  Instead…I put my big girl panties on, talked to my close friends about what was going on and they encouraged me so much.  I spent some time reflecting and remembering why I decided to share as I do and do what I do….it’s all because I didn’t get through this to sit down and keep my mouth shut!  There are too many women (and men) living in darkness when light can just be 1 step away and if sharing my story can help make someone realize that they don’t have to live in that darkness, then well, it’s all worth it.

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This is not the Sarah show and frankly me sharing my story has nothing to do with me.  Granted sharing helps me heal from things form the past even more.  But that is not the sole purpose.  The purpose is to help the sun come out sooner after the rain and bring hope to those who need it most.

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This top from Point Zero Curvy reminded me of the serenity of the rain and how when we change our outlooks on life, our circumstances can change.  It all starts in our thoughts.  This is one of my new fav tops.  The colors and cut are amazing but the feel of the fabric is probably the best part! I paired this with my fav jeans from Torrid and some cute new wedges from Nine West.

Stay Beautiful,

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Photos by Robert Skuja
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