Since my return from the Big Apple things in my life have started to change. I don’t mean that New York changed me but rather I’ve sensed that I’m walking into another new season and a few of my life situations started transitioning a couple days after I was back. Normally when I sense change coming I freak out and start trying to control everything to keep it the same – kind of like trying to put torn wrapping paper back on a present so it still looks pretty. But once a present is opened, it’s opened and it’s not going to go back to the way it was. And it’s actually a good thing because inside that pretty wrapping paper is a present – that’s the good stuff. So instead of trying to hold onto just the wrapping paper, I’m letting go to receive the good stuff. I’ve had to let go of a few things and close some doors as part of this process but it’s necessary to move forward. Often those types of decisions are not easy but they are always worth it.
As a result of letting go I’m starting to dream bigger again. It’s like God’s giving me glimpses into what could be and dropping new ideas on my heart. Ideas that have come out of nowhere. Well I guess not nowhere, I mean I’ve been leading up to things but these are new ideas. But part of me has thought these ideas were wayyyy too big. My mind has been racing now for weeks as I process and develop what’s on my heart. I keep thinking I have this dream but how on earth is it going to happen? I’ve avoided journaling about my ideas because they seem so unattainable. But last night I journalled it all out and more ideas started coming which was exciting. And then…. I was reminded….that just over a year ago I thought there was no way I would ever model. I never thought I’d go to New York to model – that legit was never even in my thoughts. I never thought I’d be able to share my story and inspire other women and young girls to love themselves. Heck, I never thought I’d really love me. And all those things have happened in 1 short year.
Then this morning I woke up, met with my personal trainer and had a killer work out and had some extra time, which is rare in the morning so I enjoyed my coffee in my big comfy chair in my bedroom (that I never use) and I read a couple devotionals that I normally don’t have time for in the morning and I sat there crying because of how much one of them really touched me. It was about praying and asking God for bigger things and going before him boldly. Now let’s be clear, this devotional was not about asking God for money and power and things. This was about asking God for opportunities to help others, things that you need in your life whether it’s a new job, healing (whether physically or emotionally), things that only He can bring about. So praying beyond ‘being safe, warm and well-fed” that we often pray out of habit. If you’d like to read the devotional click HERE.
Now whether you believe in prayer or not, this post is meant to really inspire you to start being bold. Be bold in what you are dreaming about. When you have ideas about your purpose and destiny on your heart, be bold and write them down, start thinking about what you can do to make them reality. Start taking steps towards them. It might seem impossible now but one step at a time and your dreams can really become reality. My journey is proof of that. I started taking itty bitty steps and they have grown into bigger things and things I never even dreamed of happening, have happened. There’s a saying that it’s hard to move a ship that isn’t moving, but a ship that is already moving is much easier to move because it’s already in motion. So what are you going to do to start moving?
Life really is a journey and not a destination. There is so much you can do in your life and so often it starts with a dream. So start dreaming and dream BIG. Be bold with your dreams. Be bold in the steps you take and as you take them make sure you hold your head high knowing that you are amazing…. That you are worthy of so much – love, life, greatness, happiness and soooooo much more. There is no one else who will ever be like you, there is only one you. Live your life authentically and as much as you don’t let others hold you back, don’t you be the one holding yourself back.
Nothing has actually changed since my return from New York but things are in transition and I’m in the waiting phase. This post is a big step of faith. I am proclaiming that I know there is more on the way, and that there is change on the way. I don’t know the details but……I’m letting go and letting God and I’m going to keep dreaming big. I am choosing to enjoy this time of transition rather than going into a new season while dragging my feet kicking and screaming like a 5 year old because I don’t like change.
Bring on the change!
As a result of letting go I’m starting to dream bigger again. It’s like God’s giving me glimpses into what could be and dropping new ideas on my heart. Ideas that have come out of nowhere. Well I guess not nowhere, I mean I’ve been leading up to things but these are new ideas. But part of me has thought these ideas were wayyyy too big. My mind has been racing now for weeks as I process and develop what’s on my heart. I keep thinking I have this dream but how on earth is it going to happen? I’ve avoided journaling about my ideas because they seem so unattainable. But last night I journalled it all out and more ideas started coming which was exciting. And then…. I was reminded….that just over a year ago I thought there was no way I would ever model. I never thought I’d go to New York to model – that legit was never even in my thoughts. I never thought I’d be able to share my story and inspire other women and young girls to love themselves. Heck, I never thought I’d really love me. And all those things have happened in 1 short year.
Then this morning I woke up, met with my personal trainer and had a killer work out and had some extra time, which is rare in the morning so I enjoyed my coffee in my big comfy chair in my bedroom (that I never use) and I read a couple devotionals that I normally don’t have time for in the morning and I sat there crying because of how much one of them really touched me. It was about praying and asking God for bigger things and going before him boldly. Now let’s be clear, this devotional was not about asking God for money and power and things. This was about asking God for opportunities to help others, things that you need in your life whether it’s a new job, healing (whether physically or emotionally), things that only He can bring about. So praying beyond ‘being safe, warm and well-fed” that we often pray out of habit. If you’d like to read the devotional click HERE.
Now whether you believe in prayer or not, this post is meant to really inspire you to start being bold. Be bold in what you are dreaming about. When you have ideas about your purpose and destiny on your heart, be bold and write them down, start thinking about what you can do to make them reality. Start taking steps towards them. It might seem impossible now but one step at a time and your dreams can really become reality. My journey is proof of that. I started taking itty bitty steps and they have grown into bigger things and things I never even dreamed of happening, have happened. There’s a saying that it’s hard to move a ship that isn’t moving, but a ship that is already moving is much easier to move because it’s already in motion. So what are you going to do to start moving?
Life really is a journey and not a destination. There is so much you can do in your life and so often it starts with a dream. So start dreaming and dream BIG. Be bold with your dreams. Be bold in the steps you take and as you take them make sure you hold your head high knowing that you are amazing…. That you are worthy of so much – love, life, greatness, happiness and soooooo much more. There is no one else who will ever be like you, there is only one you. Live your life authentically and as much as you don’t let others hold you back, don’t you be the one holding yourself back.
Nothing has actually changed since my return from New York but things are in transition and I’m in the waiting phase. This post is a big step of faith. I am proclaiming that I know there is more on the way, and that there is change on the way. I don’t know the details but……I’m letting go and letting God and I’m going to keep dreaming big. I am choosing to enjoy this time of transition rather than going into a new season while dragging my feet kicking and screaming like a 5 year old because I don’t like change.
Bring on the change!
Stay Beautiful,
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